Z’s Wonderland


The Choice of Recovery from Addiction By Z Zoccolante   I’m drawn towards words like a moth to a flame. Little corner bookstores pull at my insides like my bones are made of magnets. Language is music, the notes like chords in the ether, spiraling through my brain like those 80’s streamers kids would play with, long snaking fabric malleable to the slightest movement.   The walls are covered with poetry as my eyes find their...

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Numbing Out: What If I Said You Weren’t Addicted to Food? By Z Zoccolante What if numbing out pain with food is an unhealthy solution, not an addiction? What if I told you that you weren’t addicted to food? What if I told you that you didn’t have a problem with food at all? What if I told you that the problem was the discomfort beneath your skin, that urge to squirm and itch and run. The discomfort under your skin is what you’ve been...

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When Details Stress You Out By Z Zoccolante   I’ve been thinking about traveling lately, my mind seeking escape from my frantic routines of work and school, and all the nitty, gritty details of life.   I’m not a great detail person. I’m more a big picture thinker. I used to have argument/discussions with my ex because it took me a week to realize the house needed cleaning while he was bothered on day 1, and thought I was...

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Shame Traps You in an Eating Disorder But You Can Break Free By Z Zoccolante Shame can keep you trapped in an eating disorder. Shame is insidious, creeping into our self-esteem and wreaking havoc on our thoughts and feelings. Eating disorders come with both shame and guilt, but the difference is important. Shame is the feeling that “I am bad,” while guilt is the feeling that, “I did something bad.” The insidious part about shame is...

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You’re Only as Sick as Your Secrets By Z Zoccolante   There’s that saying that a chain can only be as strong as its weakest link. The saying reminds me of the game Red Rover that I played at summer fun when I was a kid.   You’d stand in a line all holding hands and sing, “Red Rover, Red Rover, send Jonathan over.” Little kid Jonathan would run at your hand linked people fence and if he was able to break through then he won....

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Skinny is the New Stressed By Z Zoccolante   A while back, one of my friends had a baby. She was nursing, working full time, exhausted constantly, and running around like a chicken with her head cut off. It was one day in her office building when a client of hers incredulously gushed at how skinny she was after having the baby and how her body bounced back so well.   They wouldn’t let the point go and asked how on earth did...

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